Is over. Can’t believe it.
Rediq. I miss it already. So much.
But I’m looking forward to college an all that shit. Gonna go turkey and do the dactyl.
It hasn’t hit me yet that I’m done with high school.
Damn.
I am extremely dissatisfied with the way that things went tonight. My insides are torn up and i can’t sleep. Im on the verge of breaking down. I know it seems dramatic and shit. But there’s so much more going on under the surface than I let show. I hide it under a casual nonchalant look that I’ve slowly divulged after years of careful practice.
I feel selfish for being upset. Is that wrong? I just want to be out of high school and into college. I’ll make my own rules and do whatever I please.
But back to the task at hand. Cailley is MIA, and shes the only person I really have to call and talk to. Everyone else is just a “hello, how are ya?” friend. Its a shitty feeling knowing no one is there to answer your call.
Call me to say good night and talk to 3 other people while on our 2 minute conversation. Sounds like it was really meaningful. But then again I guess I’m just really a selfish sentimental fuck.
My tooth really hurts.
I am sick of adult life.
I want to go back to just drinking juice boxes and watching hey Arnold with hayley. Now I work so much i never have time for her. I almost feel guilty like I’m causing her to make poor choices because she’s so lonely.
But then I don’t want the responsibility of disciplining and teaching a kid right from wrong. Especially seeing she only does what she wants anyways. It’s disappointing.
Almost as disappointing as you saying you’re here to talk and then falling asleep less than 10 minutes later.
I feel like straight shit right now.
I hope you’re sleeping well at least.
I’ll cling to the hope that you’re dreaming of me.
Good night as I drift off into the dark chasm that is my thoughts.
This is complete bullshit.
Fuck fuckfuck.
I can’t even. I just can’t.
Today was pretty much complete blunder.
But then you came along and managed to make it grade A.
This is why I love you.
